DARLING, SAVE YOURSELF FIRST

It hurts, it aches. Every single day
When will this pain go away?
Why does this always happen to me?
How much longer do I need to keep fighting this mentally emotional war for me to grow stronger?

Darling, I know you’re hurting,
I understand how it feels,
I feel the pain in your eyes,
The thoughts you have in your head, fight them off
You’re so much stronger and you know it

I’ve decluttered my mind, heart and spirit now, from all the past
I’m the owning majesty of my happiness and thoughts,
Taking charge of my life, I am now resilient. I’m a survivor
And one more thing…….

I saved myself 
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Stop Searching

You know, the thing about us humans are that we always feel the need or validation or sense of fulfilment to find something that is ‘right’ for us. The job that is ‘right’ for us, the spouse that is ‘right’ for us, clothes that suits us or are ‘right’ for us. We keep searching for things to make us happy and fill our hearts with pure content. We're so stuck at the idea of finding something that's right for us. Well fuck having everything ‘right’ in your life. Stop searching for every thing ‘right’ in your life. We always expect to find things that is right for us. And listen to me when I tell you this, for God’s sake or the sake of your sole happiness, do not expect. Expectations can kill. If you expect to find it, and for it to only turn out otherwise, trust me you’ll only end up being disappointed.

Now, what you need to do instead is to accept. Acceptance is one of the keys to a happy life and happier you. You have to ultimately learn to accept that things will not always go your way and you will not always get what you want in life. That is just how life is, and you’re not the only one. So, don’t feel like you’re the only person that is going through this. I once told someone dear to my ever so forgiving heart that I always get what I want and his reply was ‘Well, I can’t say it’s the same for me’ haha well, it turns out that I do don’t get whatever I want. I get what I need. And that is just what you need, but you just don’t realise it most of the time and feel that life is not going your way. Here’s a self-help tip: “Getting what you need will help you more than getting what you want” – Talia Anne

Two keys to take back from this post: Limit expectations and learn to accept.


Don't give up,
xoxo, Talia
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Be Alone.

Everybody needs to be alone at some point in their lives. It doesn't matter how old you are or what stage in your life you're in. You need to be alone. And I'm not talking about 'alone time'. I'm talking about actually being alone and having time for yourself for a good period of time. It can be a year, or two or three. To really figure out who you are and learn about yourself is all part of growing and being left alone is what you need to do to get there. Have meals by yourself, watch a movie, go to a concert by yourself. Do anything you would do with someone else by yourself. It is the most refreshing and liberating feeling you could ever experience. And no that is not sad, like some people would like to think or assume it is. It instead portrays your strength and dependency as a person.

Sometimes in life, in order to save someone else, you need to save yourself first. You need to learn and accept yourself first before doing the same for another. And sometimes, time for yourself is exactly what you need to do to get there.

 
xoxo, Talia
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Chopstick Dinner's 'Asian Garlic Prawns'



Ingredients:
- 8 medium sized Tiger Prawns
- 6 pieces of roughly chopped garlic cloves
- 5 pieces kaffir lime leaves, finely chopped
- 3 tbsp extra virgin Olive oil
- Salt & Pepper to taste

Instructions:
1. Place prawns, garlic, kaffir lime leaves and extra virgin olive oil in a large bowl
2. Combine the mixture and season with salt & pepper- Add according to your own taste
3. Now its time to get the prawns cooking! Cook the prawns on a cast iron pan over high heat for 2 minutes on each side, turning the prawns once it has turned into a beautiful pinkish orange
4. And you're done! Serve it hot on a platter as an appetizer or finger food or even with your mains Nasi Goreng or Fried Mee

This dish serves 4 people, takes 10 minutes to prep and just 5 minutes to cook! Go ahead and try it out, you won't regret it.
P.S I got this recipe from 'Chopstick Dinner'. Their food is devinee AND they do delivery! How convenient is that if you have a crazy hectic schedule like me.
For more info check them out here: http://www.chopstickdiner.com/ 


                                                                      Good Luck! <3 XO
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Shall we call it JS Mahendi?






My amazingly talented friend did this on me! and by free hand lagi. Since she has a natural talent for this intricate work of art I've advised her to turn this into a business opportunity. So if any of you are looking to get Mahendi skinned by my one and only gifted kawan, please let me know and I'll help you set up an appointment with her FOC. Henna/Mahendi art is not easy and it takes a lot of patience. So hit me up for this free piece of find ass art ;)

                Don't give up,
           xoxo, Talia
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I'll be your Wedding Adviser










In case y'all are unaware, I'm a Wedding Planner by profession. When I meet my couples for the first time they either A) Know exactly what they want B) Think they know exactly what they want C) Looking for a cheap ass rate or D) Are completely lost and don't even know where to begin! And that's honestly alright, I get you're obviously doing this for the first time, which is why I'm here for. To guide you and be your consultant, advisor, florist, bodyguard, waitress and mediator (when the in-laws get too much involved) Here are my tips for you:

1) Okay, so most people may like to think that this has nothing at all to do with weddings or planning a wedding but its actually the most crucial part. Please make sure this is YOUR WEDDING and not anyone elses. Have exactly what you want on your wedding day because you and your partner both want to and agree to, not because your parents or in-laws want you to. This may sound selfish and not understanding at all but don't ever let your parents have it their way on your wedding day. It is your wedding day after all. They may influence and convince you with their opinions but its vital at the end of the day to ask yourself  'Do I really want it this way?' 'Am I doing it to jaga my parents/in-laws hati?' Your wedding is ultimately about WHAT YOU WANT. You are allowed to have it whatever way you want, and please by all means go all out. But if you really really have to listen to your parents or choose to leave the arrangements to your parents/in laws for your own personal reasons, my advise is as long as they have a mutual understanding of your needs and wants for the Wedding. 

2) Don't stress, don't stress, don't stress. I know that's easier said then done. But hey that's the whole point of my existence as a Wedding Planner right? Make sure you have someone or sometwo or three helping you throughout your wedding arrangements process, trust me its a lot and you can't do it on your own. Get a Wedding Planner who has wide contacts for the necessary vendors, one with patience, honesty and most importantly one that understands exactly what you need and want for your dream wedding. Why honesty? Because that's vital! They have to be your advisors and tell you like it is if something may or may not work out and offer suggestions. 

3) Plan ahead of time. Yes, never ever leave things to the last resort, it will be hectic as hell and that's when you start to stress and be a little bitch. Try to get the venue sorted at least 6-12 months ahead of your wedding day. Venue being booking the church/temple, restaurants, hotels, halls or whatever dream venue you want. If its a hotel/hall you're planning to book, bare in mind that you'll have to pay a certain deposit amount as 'booking fee' so please have your credit cards/cash/cheque books on standby.

4) Set a budget.  Please for the love of God and yourselves set a budget. Once you have a budget, you'll know roughly how much you have to work your ass for to fund for the Wedding. The $ comes from: Clothes (Bride & Groom Gowns/Suit, Bridesmaid & Groomsmen Gowns & Suits) Bare in mind how many Groomsmen & Bridesmaid you plan to have, you may get excited and end up having like 10 each, but people once you have to start paying for them you wish you never had 10. Photo Album/Photography/Videography, Bridal Car, Venue, Entertainment (Dancers, Band, DJ) Beauty (Hair & Make-up Artist, Manicure/Pedicure, Spa/Massage/Facial) Alcohol, Invitation (Thank You Gifts, Invitation Cards) Rooms (Applicable if you're having it at a hotel), External Vendors (Florist, Dessert Bars, Sound & Light Team, Decorators)

That should be about it and all I can think of atm. Please comment and let me know in any way if you need guidance in planning your wedding or someone elses wedding, I'm always here to help and listen. 

                                                               Good Luck <3 XO
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Slimming Centres: Scam or Truth?

Having given 6 sessions of complimentary trial by a slimming centre, I decided to give it go even though I was truthfully quite doubtful of the results and for the most part because I thought it would be a good product review. So the session took about 2 and half hours, and this consultant who I was referred to there took measurements of my total body, weight, height and total body fat. When the results were out she said that I had 'too much' fat in my body and that I needed to loose it fast and immediately of course started selling me all these packages to lose weight. I refused to buy those packages she offered and said that I will just go ahead with the basic treatment that was given complimentary... that was her first attempt. She walked me to this room, took before and after pictures of my body and then proceeded with the first treatment. She first rubbed cold gel on my tummy area which was my main fat loosing area and then used a hot tool equipment rubbing against my tummy to 'melt' away the fats. After which she led me to the second room laid me down in this coffin like machine and told me that its main purpose is to increase my metabolism rate and burn total body fat. 
When the session was over she of course again was pushing for me to buy those packages, bare in mind that the cost of those packages ranged up to at least MYR 3,000 to MYR 30,000. That's completely ridiculous but yet an amount of society are strongly convinced by it. Being a wedding planner/sales person, I knew her tricks so don't even try it with me. I got off her hook giving her excuses like I'll refer a friend to you who I know has been really trying to loose weight for years but bla bla bla (being or adding in the drama always works, trust me!)
So long story short, my whole take or conclusion to this is that:
1)NEVER use the FAST & EASY way out to anything. Slimming centres like this may always promise you this and that result 'without having to go to the gym' or 'not necessarily maintaining a diet plan' or 'you'll see the results in weeks' If having a great body or being fit and healthy is what you want then you have got to work hard for it. Where's the fun and thrill if there's no challenge to that right? If you opt to use the easy way out (and I'm not talking about merely fitness, I'm talking life in general) then how will you learn and unravel new things about yourself? How will you challenge yourself to be the best you choose to be? How will you make yourself so proud and accomplished? Think about it.
2) Body Image.When I was there and refused to buy the packages, the consultant kept saying that she wants to 'help me be skinny' and that I have a 'pear-shaped' body and she wants to 'make it straight' Girl, I really already am slim, I just have fatty areas to work on. When she took the before and after pictures of me, I realized that I love my body for the way it is. I really do. We all have different bodies that we just need to learn to embrace. I for one, had a not so easy time embracing and loving and ultimately accepting my body. You know, sometimes you have to go through the negative to help you journey through the positive.
3) Eat Clean, Train Hard. I never realized me daily diet plan was doing harm to my body, storing more fat in my tummy then I thought it would. You don't need supplements or slimming centres to help you loose weight. They would first say that you don't need the gym and a healthy diet, but once you sign up for it that's when they say 'oh you know you have to control your food and eat healthy as well. Only doing this treatment won't help you loose weight'
In summary, slimming centres in my personal opinion may not be as trustworthy. However, everyone is entitled to their opinions based on their results and testimonies so I'm just gonna leave it as that.


                                                                         <3 XO
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Pain

Pain is a part of growing. Sometimes life closes doors because it's time to move forward. And that's a good thing because we often won't move unless circumstances force us to. When times are tough, remind yourself that no pain comes without a purpose. Move on from what hurt you, but never forget what it taught you. Just because you're struggling doesn't mean you're failing. Every great success requires some type of worthy struggle to get there. Good things take time, stay patient and stay positive. Everything is going to come together; maybe not immediately, but eventually.
Remember that there are two kinds of pain: pain that hurts and pain that changes you. When you roll with life, instead of resisting it, both kinds help you grow.


                                                           Love yourself, good luck :)
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Y.O.U

This post is a personal one for me. I've been thinking about how I was going to write this and if I was ever going to get this on here. There are only two people in my life that I've spoken to about this and they're two of my close girlfriends. Why I'm choosing to share this with all of you is because I love helping people and I believe that this will help you in one way or another. Ever since I was younger (10) I was always 'bigger' then my sisters. Nicknames like 'Fat-ass' and 'fatty' stuck on until I was mid way through uni. Family members talked about our size difference and that made me feel insecure about my body. I was an insecure, self- conscious girl who lacked confidence growing up and I hated the fact that people used to compare our body sizes. haha in fact bloody hell that was how some of them differentiated me from my twin. Growing up, I always listened to what people said about my body and I began to accept the fact that I was 'fat' when I was far from that. I used to look at myself in the mirror saying 'I'm so fat'. I never realized however, that I only felt that way because I was doing to myself what people did to me. I was COMPARING myself to my sisters. And listen here guys, it made me feel horrible. I was constantly unhappy and dissatisfied with my body. Yes, I starved myself, yes I shoved a toothbrush down my throat getting everything that I ate out. Is that healthy? Nope it certainly wasn't. I mean what was I doing to my body and my health? It was not at all good. I'm only 21 and I'm still learning to love myself and be happy with ME and my body. In this process of self learning I've come to learn and accept that those comments that people made and still make about me looking like a 'LAYS' bag of chips is not going to affect me anymore. I'm honestly fed-up and its tiresome when you listen and believe what people say about you. Those comments used to validate what I thought about the size of my body. I never realized how shitty and unhealthy it was to accept and believe what people think and say about you. Well news flash guys, no one knows you better than you do! You know yourself best and don't you ever let those comments that people say about you validate who you are and the way you look. Ask yourself this: Do those comments make me feel good? Do I like feeling this way? If the answer is no, then don't make yourself feel the way I did. It's a learning process and it takes time for you to accept who you are and your body and to love and embrace every inch of it. But when you do, when you feel that happiness and when you find that happiness within yourself not a single one of that negative horseshit comment can break you or make you feel insecure. Like for God's sake, to be honest with you, this is a first for me but I love my body. Like I freaking love it! I love my 34-inch arse and the fact that I don't have and need and want a thigh gap. I feel good about the way I look now and it's absolutely ridiculous that people think I'm fat. Just the thought of people calling me that makes me laugh. I still work out and try to eat healthy when I can, I still indulge in junk food because I let myself have a little treat. I used to put so much pressure on myself to look good, to be as skinny as my sisters and to have a thigh gap. Well boo-freaking-hoo stop comparing yourselves to others, not every body is designed to have a thigh gap cause nobody, like honestly no body is the same. There are more than a billion people in this world but we're all different and special. Yes even us twins. When you learn to believe that, you will feel so flipping good about yourself. So stop being a follower and start being a leader. Be your leader. Love yourself and love your body shut out those negative comments cause they're not going to make you feel any better. It's all up to you when you make that choice. Love yourself you guys, LOVE yourself. God loves you just the way you are :)


                                                                            <3 X
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Everybody needs a 'chubby bunny'

It's currently about a little over 4 a.m now and here I am lying on my bed, Nokia Windows phone in hand tip tapping away whilst my cuddle worthy tiger-elephant printed pillow case is sat leaning against my thigh. I suddenly have this urge at this odd hour to blog as I've just spoken to a good friend of mine who's living overseas whom I've not spoken to for a while now and I must say it feels so good to speak to her again! After having a fulfilling chat with her I've realized that we all need a 'chubby bunny' (one of her many nicknames despite her not being at all near to chubby. How odd!) My idea of a 'chubby bunny' is someone or in fact, it doesn't necessarily have to be someone. It can be something or anything that makes you feel good and nice inside. Like that feeling you get after a good workout or after confession or indulging in your preference of pleasure or the feeling I get when I'm blogging. It's just that feel good, positively pleasing feeling. Something or someone that makes you feel good, like good vibes you know and make you go 'It was so good or nice talking to you!' or 'What a good workout that was!' I'm sure you guys have experienced that before. And I know that we all need that in our lives. Especially after a long tough day at work, uni or school or just during a not so good day. It does matter if we're too preoccupied in our work lives. Fact is, we often forget, ignore or are ignorant to the fact that we all need a 'chubby bunny' now and then. Who is your 'chubby bunny'? I'd genuinely love to know them!
Andddd I'm off to bed now. Goodnight!

                                                                   
                                                                      <3 X
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Feeling Lost.

Okay before any of you jump into conclusions, I just wanna let y'all know that this is not a self pity post. It's just one of those days where I feel lost. Do you guys ever experience days like this? Or is it just me? It's like I don't feel happy and I'm worried. Like about my job or if I'm ever gonna get that call from that guy next week telling me that I secured myself a job that I really want. I'm just worried about this country and the economy of this country and yes it will all matter 5 years from now because it's my future I'm talking about. I sometimes forget what it's like to feel happy. The only time I can say I'm truly happy is when I'm surrounded with my friends. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and we're close but I feel that I'll be happier seeing them if I stay away from home. Maybe then I'll learn to appreciate them more. I don't knowww. I guess I'm just in one of 'those days'. What's got me worrying again is that I feel this way almost weekly now. And that's not one single bit healthy. Hopefully prayers will help!
Anyway, I'm going to finish my bottle of green tea that's gotten cold now and continue reading this amazing book by Judith O'Reilly titled 'A Year of Doing Good'. Feeling a tad bit better now that I've expressed how I feel! I love you guys and I hope y'all love yourselves too :)


                                                    
                                           (Ignore the price tag that I tried removing! haha)
                                        
                                                                         X <3
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'I Don't Mind Doing It'

This isn't what you think it is! (as per the title) hahah you dirty dirty minds you! Well I'm currently interning at a hotel under the sales and marketing department. Sixth week in, 6 more weeks to go! and my boss wants me to remain here as a permanent staff but I've yet to come to a decision. 

I've had this thought running in my mind for a couple days now and I am still partially clueless as to what I'm deciding to go on with. It's quite stressful and not easy I must say! 

Something I've learnt from this is don't do or settle for something because you don't mind doing it. We all have dreams and accomplishments that we'd love to achieve one day. A gold medal as a sign of our victory and success and accomplishment and reward.  My dream is to own my first ever fragrance ranging from perfumes to body mists then expanding to scented candles cause I LOVE scented candles and then to designing my own cool t-shirts which I already have designs of in fact. That's my ultimate dream. Right now however my second dream is to work for a fashion and beauty magazine or an events management team.

During the course of my internship I've realized that I absolutely love writing; feature lifestyle article writing that is. My body screams with excitement when I see my work being published in the hotels in-house print ads as well their social media accounts and Website. It certainly gives me pleasure and I feel proud and satisfied with my work which is amazing because it drives me and keeps me motivated to performing even better and bringing it up a notch for the next project assigned.

So, as of now, I still have yet to make my decision as to which career path I will essentially sail into once I've completed my internship program but I know prayers will help me with that.




X <3
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Christmas & New Years Eve Make-up Tutorial

So firstly after cleansing and moisturizing my face, I used Max Factor 
correcting cream over my face

I moved on to apply Bodyshop's foundation, this is the cream type and I highly recommend for you guys to get it. It's smooth and gives your complexion a smooth moisturizing look and it stayed on longer then I expected it to!

Next, I applied the second foundation from Sephora just so it will last even longer on my face throughout the night.

On to the eyes now. I used Skin Food's eggplant eye shadow at the inner corner of my eyes to give it a brighter look. It looks like gold actually.

Next, I applied Maybeline's black stick eye liner at the bottom of my eye lid as well as the inner top of my top eye lid. Applying eye liner at the inner top of your eye lid will give you that 'falsies' look! Now that you know this secret, you need not worry about the hassle of putting on falsies. Your welcome haha :D

Right, for the eye shadow I used Loreal's brownish-bronze-maroon first on my eye lid

I then applied a darker shade of brown towards the outer corner of my eyes

Silky Girls's gel eye liner is really good for applying liner at the top. I rocked the 'cat-eye' look. I recommend using gel liner just cause I feel it stays longer and it wouldn't smear when wet. But you guys can use liquid liner as well.

I finished it of by blobbing on two coats of Estee Lauder's mascara

The result of my eye make-up. I left my brows as it is.

 And last but not least blusher! I don't actually have blusher so I used my eye shadow instead! Here's a trick for perfecting your blush! First, with your brush measure the length from your nose to the end of your cheek, then measure diagonally the length from your nose to your ears. The results should give you an idea and help you of the area your blush should be applied to.

And here I am rocking a selfie of the end product. As for my hair I just pinned it into a low bun and added wax and hairspray for a longer lasting look. 

My Christmas dress from 'Nicole'


New Years Eve outfit!


Hope guys liked it and found it helpful. Oh and HAPPY BLEEPIN NEW YEAR GUYS!! I wish you guys the best of luck in everything that you  partake in and lots of love, joy and happiness in your hearts. Don't forget to thank God for a welcoming 2015 as well. :) Byee

X<3
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A very beachy holiday!









Happy new years eve you guys!! What are your plans for tonight? :D Okay so moving on from my new years eve excitement for now, thought I share my very exciting, crazy and definitely not one to forget trip I made with my girlies two weekends ago before they headed back home to their respective countries for good ;( boo-freaking-hoo. So we spent two crazy nights together in Port Dickson, went hiking and it was beautiful. The scenery was indeed amazing! The first two pictures above are the views from way on top the lighthouse. We continued our hike and the jungle then opened up to a beautiful beach. It's like the ones you would see in movies where it opens up to like a deserted beach of some sort. Accept this beach was not deserted and we were not stranded on a lonely island building a campfire, stood in a circle singing 'Kumbaya' and sticking sticks into fishes for food, when a hot ass men then comes and rescues us. It sort of reminded me of sexy Leonardo Dicaprio in the movie 'The Beach' for some reason and 'Survivor' oh and 'The Even Stevens Movie' if you guys remember that. But anyhow, it was really really nice. I definitely had an amazing trip with my chummies and I'm gonna miss them a hell lot. These girls are truly amazing friends. 

Also, I know its already December and I'm meant to post my outfits monthly. So, as I really wanna share what I'll be wearing tonight I will post up both my Christmas and new years eve outfits tomorrow, together with a make-up post. So look out for the new blog posts tomorrow! Have an amazing time ringing in the new year and please be safe! xo
X <3
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Merry Christmas Everyone!!





Woohoo its Christmas!!! Merry Christmas loves!! Just thought of sharing with you guys some of the things that I absolutely love during Christmas! I hope everyone's having a good time this Christmas with your friends and family and of course the food! ;) Have fun!

 X <3 
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